Wednesday, February 10, 2016

Hi Family!

My name is Lauren and I am so excited to be part of the team that will be traveling to India in April. Words can't describe how much I am looking forward to meeting and spending time with all of you! I'm so grateful God has given me this opportunity to go and meet some of the children He adores. I will be lifting you up in my prayers! Please pray for us as we begin to prepare our hearts for all God has in store in the upcoming months.

Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves. Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. Share with the Lord's people who are in need. Practice hospitality. Romans 12:9-13

Sending my love!

Monday, February 8, 2016


AHHH it's 62 days till we head back to Mussoorie India!!! It's been almost one year since l I seen your beautiful faces and I just CAN'T WAIT to see you and to feel your warm loving hugs! Iv'e been feeling this HUGE EXCITEMENT and JOY that God is allowing me have this opportunity to partner with Him again in this beautiful way!
For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name. I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord's holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surprises knowledge, that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen! 
Ephesians 3:14-21 
 I have you, your families, and city in my prayers! Love each of you! 


It's crazy how time passes and in about a of couple months, I'll be traveling across the world (with some AWESOME people) to see ALL OF YOU. It's been way too long, I'm so STOKED to spend time with one another, create more memories, and have fun! You are in my prayers and please pray for us- that our time together will be filled with love and the Lord's presence. 

Here's the scripture that has been placed upon my heart:

"Now that I, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also should wash one another's feet. I have set you an example that you should do as I have done for you. I tell you the truth no servant is greater than his master, nor is a messenger greater than the one who sent him. Now that you know these things, you will be blessed if you do them." -John 13:14-17

Love you all and see you soon! 
Brother Brett

Thursday, February 4, 2016

Aloha India Fam!

I'm so excited to be coming back home to spend some time with all of you.  We leave Hawaii April 9th to travel half way around the world so that we can spend some quality time together.  I'm looking forward to see how big all of you have grown and to even see some of those mustaches that I've been seeing in picture.  
Please keep our 2016 team in prayer that God will move in a mighty way in this time.  
Philippians 2:1-5
Therefore if you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any common sharing in the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion,then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and of one mind. Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others.
In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus:
I love you all and see you soon!

Friday, January 22, 2016

Brush off the cobwebs...

Stay tuned for the latest, greatest breaking developments!

He's heading back... and he's got a brand new crew with him! ;)

Wednesday, May 27, 2015

My Top India Takeaways...

This experience has been absolutely amazing for me.

It has exceeded my expectations on so many levels, from just what I physically saw with my eyes in the people and landscapes all the way to what I experienced spiritually with my team and especially within my own heart. And when I say spiritually, I am not referring to a general sense that one may use when saying “there is something spiritual about this land,” but instead a very specific spiritual experience with Jesus Christ, Who I accept to be my living God.

Though we were only gone for 10 days, it is impossible for me to recap all that happened in those 10 days here, but instead I’ll share some of the major realizations that I’ve had on some very important areas in my faith…some that are re-realizations, but some that are completely mind-blowing for me and new.

1. Being PLANTED in a community centered around Jesus is necessary.

    Having a community is much different from being planted in one. Having the resource of a Christ-centered community is awesome, but unless you are deeply rooted in the middle of that community you will not fully utilize the benefits of that community, and as a result your faith is at danger of being just lukewarm. I used to think it was just important. But “important” isn’t the best word, and is misleading.  It is nearly impossible to experience Jesus fully by yourself, because from a community you will continue to grow through the support received BY them AND through support you give TO them. Use iron to sharpen iron…always, not sometimes.  Then you don’t leave your sharpened in the drawer with the other iron, you make use of it outside and return to always be sharpened. My teammates on this journey(who are part of the larger community that I have at home) were more than I could ever ask for. They encouraged me in ways that I’ve never experienced before and shared with me the growing pains(and blessings) that I endured…and will continue to share them with me moving forward.

2. I firmly believe in the power of prayer.

    I’ve never firmly believed in this. I always understood the concept, but I always thought it wasn’t for me. I didn’t identify with it, and I treated it as an exercise, before meals, when asking for help and safety, because I didn’t feel anything. It was not my strong suit. I experienced more prayer on this trip than any other 10 days of my life…prayer in a crowd where everyone was praying out loud at the same time(which if you’ve never experienced is indescribable), prayer in large and small groups, and prayer alone. I FELT the power of prayer in different ways, something that I’d never felt before. I felt it when I was prayed over, and felt it when I prayed over others. On Sunday I had the opportunity to pray over a group of 5 of the orphans, huddled with their heads down in front of me, around ages 4 through 10. For the first time, I didn’t feel like I needed to think of the words.  The words spoken were channeled through my heart instead of my mind. It was just…different, and I’m realizing now it’s so hard to put into words. All I know is now that I firmly believe…and desire to grow much more in it.

    **I initially started writing this blog on the plane ride back from India, but it feel by the wayside and I’m finishing it up today,  a month later. But in the last 30 days since I’ve been home, I’ve participated in a 30-days of prayer challenge, with mostly members from the India team, where daily (except Sundays) we meet from 6am to 7:30am.  I don’t even wake up this early to surf!  But it has changed my life, my experience in prayer, and improved my the clarity that I have in who I am, my relationship with others, my relationship with Jesus...and I’ve never felt so close to Him ever in my life.  I feel it’s necessary to mention that the other areas of my life(work, relationships, etc) aren’t exactly rosy despite what many may think, but I feel on top of the world because of this, and it proves to me that with a strong prayer life, despite any problems I run into, I’m able to not only get through the days, but succeed through the days with a super high spirit.

    The purpose of prayer can be different for many of us. I think that the most common use of prayer is to ask in time of need. Many of us only pray to God (or for some of us to just “a” god out there) when looking for hope, when things are out of your control. I’m guilty of this of course. But I’ve discovered that this is because my view of God has been inaccurate all this time. I saw God as a disciplinary God…a judge (NOT a judgmental judge, but just a judge who gave punishment when deserved, and granted good when appropriate). I knew He was about love, but I still needed to adjust my understanding. And it’s through personal experience that I have been able to adjust my understanding. I’ve learned that God is just as real as my own father and mother, as my brothers, as my friends.  He doesn’t judge me, instead He focuses on loving me. He focuses on what is best for me. If I sin, the consequences of my sin are deserved, caused by me. If I do not suffer consequences, I’m not “lucky,” I am fortunate, because due to God’s grace for me I won’t be punished. But if I suffer consequences, God isn’t punishing me, I’m walking through the effects of my own actions.  Sometimes I walk through negative effects of actions that had nothing to do with me, that I wasn’t responsible for.  I appreciate and accept these times just as much, because I have faith in God, who is completely real to me, that He is protecting me and that I cannot understand the big picture(His plan for me) as much as He knows, and I’m okay with that…because what happens today and tomorrow is just a part of what He has in store for me overall.  Besides, I wouldn’t want to expect to be able to understand what God understands because He is so much bigger than I. I know He is speaking to me in ways that I may not realize, and especially in ways that are uncomfortable to me, which I have to take and I’m learning to embrace. Anyway…I’ve detracted a bit, but the point is that I understand that God is love, and He is only love to me, I choose treat Him the same way I treat other relationships in my life…with communication, with openness, not with just requests for support and wisdom and guidance, but also with praises and gratefulness. I talk to Him daily because I want to, because it’s necessary to maintain a good and healthy relationship with Him.  I cannot expect to have a healthy and close relationship with a friend I speak to once a week or less, who I call only when I need a favor….so why would I choose to communicate with God of all people in that same way?

3. I believe in healing and miracles.

    I saw a few things happen during the trip…healing, and experienced being healed myself.  I’ve also learned since then that healing doesn’t always happen. I’m not always going to see big bangs and crazy miraculous things. But it’s okay. Because it doesn’t mean they don’t work or exist. They are just happening in ways that I’m not realizing, and sometimes I’m so focused on what MY perspective is, what MY definitions of healing or miracles are, that I miss everything else going on. It’s so narrow minded. And it continues to boil down to being obedient in realizing that what we ask and pray for isn’t always what God wants for us, and certainly isn’t in the timing that He has for us.

4. Not having IS having.

    These boys and girls in the orphanages…you know they either do not have parental guidance, or they don’t have living parents at all. Some of them have crazy stories, parents in the sex trade, parents who were murdered, parents who died in front of their eyes. But you would never tell from looking at their faces. You’d never tell by looking at their eyes and their smiles, and interacting with them. It’s because they are filled with the love of Jesus. They have been loved by Jesus also through their guardians who display the love of Jesus because they themselves have dedicated their lives to Jesus. These boys and girls don’t have material possessions. They don’t have iPhones, iPads, toys, not even really much clothing. On top of this they face persecution and potentially death because of their beliefs. Despite all of this, they are so focused on God and their love for the Lord is so pure. They don’t have what we think is important and essential to have in this world, yet they HAVE SO MUCH MORE THAN WE HAVE.  I’ve said this in a testimony given about Mukestamar, a bible school student that we met in India(ask me if you want to hear the full story)…the things we have here that we think are essential are just distractions…distractions from Jesus and what He wants for us and of us and to do with us.  We think they help us do things, get closer to things, maybe even learn how to build our relationships with Jesus…but in the end, we allow them to be distractions that pull us away. If I only had this…it’s hard for me because of this…you know what would be awesome and would get me there is this…um, how about thinking about not having my mom, my dad, my brothers, no surfboard, no clothes, no home to live in, no car, no phone, no computer, no internet,…how hard would it be then? Would it be easy to love Jesus then? For me, probably not, because I’d wonder why my life was so unfortunate.  But this is my problem, and this is what I focus to work on: being okay with not having, and understanding what I really need in my life, versus what just distracts me. I’m blessed that I will probably never have to go through not having anything like those kids in India, but that’s not the point. And while these needs may be different from you, my only need is a relationship with Jesus, and I’m learning what it means to have only that.

5. I was lukewarm for the Lord.

    I think that through all of the realizations above, I understood how lukewarm I was in my faith. And the more I grow from these things, the more and more  I realize how lukewarm I really was. I don’t want to be lukewarm, because there is so much more fulfillment when I’m not lukewarm…it’s not good enough, and God wants more from me, and I know why. I never want to be lukewarm ever again because I know better and I feel the freedom that comes with not being lukewarm.

If you don’t have that relationship with Jesus, or have never even been to church before…I hope this blog doesn’t scare you. I actually thank you for reading it through because perhaps it’s a reflection of the respect you have for me…either that or you are in such disbelief of how different this sounds compared to person you used to know. But I’m no different to you as a friend. I hope it doesn’t turn you off.  Instead, I hope it makes you think a little more about your life and how you live it, what you value, what you place your faith in, and what hope you have.  If you’re reading this and cannot relate, I don’t wish that you believe in God because of these words I’ve written, but that you simply reflect and give it the thought that it deserves. I encourage you to put aside any preconceived notions, any pride, and any laziness. Because there is so much more to gain by not being complacent in this. Anyway…I’m just absolutely stoked on the journey I’m on, and I would want everyone else to be just as stoked as I am.


Thursday, April 23, 2015

Devotional Reading for Thursday, April 23, 2015 (the day after!)

Today's Reading: 1 Samuel 27; 1 Chronicles 9; Psalm 141; Matthew 10

“Anyone who loves their father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves their son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me.  Whoever does not take up their cross and follow me is not worthy of me.  Whoever finds their life will lose it, and whoever loses their life for my sake will find it.  — Matthew 10:37-39

Jesus’ mission is well-established, and now is the time for Him to send out the 12 apostles with His power and message.  He prepares them for the opposition and persecution they will face:  that the battle is not against flesh and blood but against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms (Eph 6:12); that our strength and victory come as we learn to let go and give Jesus priority over everything in our lives. 

We can think of these 12 apostles as one of the greatest generations of the church.  They were ordinary men and women, called out under the persecution of the Roman Empire to lay the spiritual foundation of the church, and most were killed in the process.  Somewhere in their discipleship journey, there was a RELEASE that moved them from double-minded followers to Revolutionaries for Christ.

Welcome home! I’m so proud of each of you working together as the body of Christ.  As we settle back into our routines, I pray that you will reflect how your walk with Jesus has been transformed.  It starts with our own awareness of and repentance of the Pharisee in our own lives.  How easy it is in our culture to be double-minded and hypocritical. 

But I have hope that if God can transform the lives of the 12 apostles, he can definitely transform mine.  On this trip, we each have had a glimpse of what it means to truly live by faith…to lose your life for Jesus and then find it.  To be weak and vulnerable so He can be glorified.  To choose to BECOME less so HE can become greater.

Your role as missionary disciples is to be hot coals within the church, your families and community; to be a testimony of what it means to deny yourself, take up your cross and follow Him; to not FEAR rejection and persecution because of the rare and deeper fellowship that it brings with our Savior.

Almighty Father, Creator of heaven and earth, so humbled that I am called to be your son.  Continue to transform my walk with you.  Help me to trust and obey you more…to be open to your revelation that allows me to see areas that FEAR has prevented me from embracing your promises for my life.  Give me the faith and courage to let go and trust in you.  To be patient in your work in my life…trusting that you will be faithful to complete the work you started.  I pray that as I continue to walk in faith and obedience, you will transform me to become more like Jesus.  That in Him, I will find the peace and love and hope that He gave to so many until He was united with you in heaven.  In the awesome name of Jesus I ray.  Amen. 

~Pastor Creighton

Tuesday, April 21, 2015

Devotional Reading for Wednesday, April 22, 2015

Today's Reading: 1 Samuel 25,26; Psalm 63; Matthew 9

“As Jesus was walking along, he saw a man named Matthew sitting at his tax collector’s booth.  ‘Follow me and be my disciple,’ Jesus said to him.  So Matthew got up and followed him.”   – Matthew 9:9 NLT

Matthew was a tax collector and in his time tax collectors were well off.  He probably had a comfortable and secure life with his career.  Here he meets Jesus.  Well, Jesus sees Matthew and invites him to be his disciple.  Matthew leaves his career and accepts the invitation. 

Some of you may have made some very tough decisions prior to accepting the invitation for this trip.  I trust that as you look back you will see it was well worth it.  Now heading home the past week and a half may seem like a blur.  Did that really happen?  It’s already over?  Nonetheless, an eternal impact has been made in the lives of the people you’ve encountered and in your own life.

“So, my dear brothers and sisters, be strong and immovable.  Always work enthusiastically for the Lord, for you know that nothing you do for the Lord is ever useless.”  – 1 Corinthians 15:58 NLT

Now what?

Remember this time, the unity, the relationships, God’s faithfulness and provision.  Share your stories with others.  Listen.  What is God saying to you?   Rest and refuel? leave a career?  start a career?  start a ministry?  build or mend a relationship?  The list can go on…

It probably wasn’t easy for Matthew, but Jesus was leading his life.  As we follow Him, we can trust in His plans and provision.  Disciple of Jesus, be grateful for each day, and choose to follow Him daily.  As David McCracken says, “Pay the price to hear His voice and have the courage to do what he says.”

Abba, Thank you for this amazing opportunity to serve our brothers and sisters in India!  Holy Spirit, continue to guide and strengthen me in my daily walk.  May I be open to any invitation you offer in my life and have the courage to do what you say.  In His name, Amen.

Monday, April 20, 2015

Devotional Reading for Tuesday, April 21, 2015

Today's Reading: 1 Samuel 24; 1 Chronicles 8; Psalms 57,58; Matthew 8

When Jesus arrived at Peter’s house, Peter’s mother-in-law was sick in bed with a high fever.  But when Jesus touched her hand, the fever left her. Then she got up and prepared a meal for him.  That evening many demon-possessed people were brought to Jesus. He cast out the evil spirits with a simple command, and he healed all the sick.  This fulfilled the word of the Lord through the prophet Isaiah, who said, “He took our sicknesses and removed our diseases.” —Mathew 8:14-17

Jesus is our Healer!  When we have faith in Him and believe, He can Heal!

Through your actions, faithfulness, and love, the girls, the staff and the people in India will believe that Jesus is REAL!

Dear Father God, I thank you for sending our Hawaii team to meet Your needs.  Wherever there is a prayer that is needed, be there with the team to do Your will.  Thank you for the girls and the caretakers who watch over them.  I ask You to bless them abundantly! Protect them from head to toe.  Bless and protect the adults around them, their home and the surroundings.  I ask for protection as our Hawaii team ministers to the girls and travel mercies as they end their mission.  I lift up the leaders of our team for protection and guidance.  In Jesus' Name I pray, Amen.

~Aunty Chris

Spirit Break Out

I am continued to be left in awe, almost speechless as I see the POWER of our living God move throughout the nation of India. The promise God had given was that a small town of 26,000 people would be living streams of water to reach a nation of nearly 1.3 billion for Jesus. I love how God uses the humble to shame the proud, the weak to shame the strong, small things to make a BIG difference, and ordinary people to do EXTRAORDINARY things. 

Yesterday, our team had the privilege of heading the local church's Sunday service. Our pastors were able to reinforce the promise God has for his people; that there was a Promise Land for each of them to be conquered. But standing in the way of the land flowing with milk and honey, were giants- the thoughts of self-doubt and worth, disabilities, broken family backgrounds, etc. What God spoke was that in order to walk into our Promise land, we need the same Spirit God gave Joshua and Caleb: a Spirit of courage, boldness, and overcoming! That in order for each and every one of his people to walk into their purpose (their Promise Land), chains needed to be broken.

It was a humbling experience, to pray for our brothers and sisters. To pray for courage. To pray for boldness. To pray for an increase of faith and the power of the Holy Spirit. As we prayed and I looked around the room, I saw chains being broken and giants being slain. Freedom was being unleashed! 

" For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." -Jeremiah 29:11

I believe in the promise and plan he made for our brothers and sisters, for this town, and his nation: That all would come to know and worship the one true God. 

Sunday, April 19, 2015

Devotional Reading for Monday, April 20, 2015

Today's Reading: 1 Samuel 23; Psalms 31,54; Matthew 7

But I am trusting you, O Lord, saying, “You are my God!” —Psalm 31:14
David is being chased by Saul for his life, and in this chapter of Psalm 31, verses 1-13, David is expressing his raw emotions of fear, agony, tiredness and loneliness because of this "
season" that God has him in. There is a promise to David for him to be king but up to this point, it certainly doesn't feel like it. It just feels like a life of a fugitive, never sleeping in the same bed twice.

And then we read David write in verse 14 that he trusts in the Lord and exclaims, "You are my God!" In the midst of his misery and discomfort, when his own friends don't want to be seen with him for fear of their lives, David digs into his well of relationship with the Lord and says, "You are my God!" He then continues to write words of hope and trust and surrender to conclude chapter 31.

For us today, as we follow Jesus, we will face many uncomfortable seasons in our life. The perspective of walking with Jesus is less a matter of "if" but more "when" storms may come. Having been away from home for the past 8 days, some of you may have experienced a storm or two along the way. My challenge for you today is to take a moment to be real to God and tell Him how you really feel in the moments of trial. After you've got it off your chest, begin to center your heart back to the Lord by meditating and audibly thanking God for all that He's blessed You with and then end by proclaiming as David did, "You are my God!"

Father, I pray for my brothers and sisters in India that You would cover them with Your joy and hope today. Reveal Your love to them as the time in India is soon coming to a close. Heal those that may not feel well and allow their relationship with You to grow deeper in likeness to how we read about David and his relationship with You. We love You. In Jesus Name, Amen.

~Kamu & Bugs

Saturday, April 18, 2015

Freed From The Lies

Yesterday marked the end of our "manhood retreat" for the older boys at the home here in Mussoorie. We talked about God having a bigger plan (Jeremiah 29:11), Needing friendships that sharpen each other (Proverbs 27:17), the Power of submitting to authority (1 Samuel 24:5-7), Building our lives with the materials that last (1 Corinthians 3:10-15), and Persevering through hardship (James 1:2-14). The capstone to this retreat came when we had everyone write down the lies that they had been believing about themselves and lies that others had spoken over them. Lies like "I'll never amount to anything important", "I come from a poor family and will have a poor family", "God has forgotten about me", and the list goes on... We then took time to share these in groups and pray over one another, recognizing that all lies come from Satan (John 8:44) but God is our Father. Lastly, in an act of freedom and promise we cast the lies into the fire to be burnt up and forgotten, realizing that these no longer define or have power over us. It was a powerful moment of hope and I can't wait to share more in the days to come!

Some of the Honorable Young Men of Mussoorie!

L to R: Prince, Amit, Ajay, Pradeep, Ganesh, and Sunil

Embracing the Struggle

It’s 6:58am on Sunday morning. We completed the 2-day boys’ retreat at Firs yesterday, and I had the opportunity to spend a lot of quality time with some of them. The two days were broken down into five 2-hour sessions led by Keane, Brett, and Paul. In each of the sessions the boys participated in an activity that they would then apply directly to scripture that one of the leaders taught, and finally break out into groups of 4-6 to discuss, journal, and pray on a more personal level.  

I’ve learned so much about not only these boys but also about myself in these breakout groups. The boys in my group were between 16-18 and dealt with a lot of the same issues that I dealt with growing up…pressure to perform in school, the self doubts and inevitable need to compare yourself to your peers that “perform” better than you, and the difficulty of obedience and submission to authority.

…In the end my advice to them about self-doubt was something like this; If you feel little by comparing yourself to somebody “superior” all the time, you’re only seeing 50% of the picture. There is undoubtedly also somebody else looking at you, comparing themselves to you, thinking you are “superior” to them. This is the other 50%. Take a step back to get a wide view. In the bigger picture, you’re neutral when you put yourself in the middle of these other two.

But what you would say to the one who sees you as “superior” and feels down about him/herself?  Unless you’re a not-so-nice person(aka jerk), you’re probably going to encourage that person and explain to them that they shouldn’t feel down. You may take pride in what you are more refined in but then reach out your hand to help the other person in whatever way they need to learn and grow in that area. You may even just be humble and deny that you’re that good, and thank that person for the compliment…but then again, proceed to encourage them.  In the same way, the one who you compare yourself to that is “better than” or more “superior” than you will probably have the same thoughts toward you. They won’t want you to feel down on yourself, explaining that you can achieve just as much, if not more, with just a little more practice and discipline, and maybe just guidance.

In life, you’ll always be able to compare yourself to somebody better. There will be no end. Instead of focusing on the doubt when you end up comparing yourself(which is inevitable), focus on the opportunity to grow. Focus on the encouragement, and ultimately, what God’s purpose is for you in that current setting. If everything were so easy for you to achieve, you wouldn’t work hard and develop your character. God made things difficult for us so that we could grow and learn.  Sometimes you have to earn what God is going to bless you with, because when you achieve it, there will be great responsibility in wielding that blessing. Wart(childhood King Arthur) wasn’t able to pull that sword out of the stone immediately, Daniel-san had to wax on and wax off before competing, Rick Kane had to ride the old wooden finless surfboards before riding the Thunderbolt against Lance Burkhart at Pipeline(only 2% of you will understand this last movie reference…and if so, HIGH FIVE!!).

Chances are, the professional athlete who had to practice hard to make the bigs has a more refined character than the professional athlete who was born with raw talent and just stepped into the bigs.  Embrace the hardship, toiling, and the struggle. For it is God given, and to embrace these things is to embrace God. It’s in these times that you’ll grow the most.  

Jeremiah 29:11
“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for wefare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.”

Now the most interesting part of teaching this to the boys is that I realized I need to remind myself of this daily. (It’s funny how much you learn by teaching.) I realize that as I grow older, my flesh wants to be more and more independent, more prideful, and feel like I don’t need anybody else. But as I learn to hand my heart over to Jesus, I understand that quite the opposite is true. I wish to be less independent and more dependent on Him, filled with humility, and focused on what God’s plan is for me, not my plan for myself.